"I'm not sure I deserve it, but I embrace it everyday."

What Would Jesus Do? It's a question that most Christians would admit to having learned during Sunday school. It's a question that a person asks when facing a tough situation. It's a question people ask in order to put their life back on track. It's a question that floats around in my head occasionally.

During today's class, "What would Jesus do?" came to mind once more. Although this time, it was in a different form. What kind of movies would Jesus make?

I'm sure that some of you cringed when you read that last bit. I'll be the first to admit that I would cringe if someone else had posted it. Why? Is it really such an awful question? Maybe it is. Either way, it's what I've been thinking about since class.

I don't have the answer to the question. I feel like when I know God, I'll be able to answer that question. Getting to know God has been a struggle for me. For a very long time I lacked any motivation to put time aside to get to know God.

A spiritual walk is full of ups and downs, highs and lows. Due to a series of unfortunate events, I've been on a low for a long time. My passion for God has seemed to run dry. I find I try to make sense of life without God. I try to find meaning or answers without God.

The path of faith is easy to get off of. It's easy to stray. It's easy to be proud and believe that everything is ok. It hurts to get back on the path. It's painful to realize how far off the path you've gone. It hurts so much to look God in the face and not know who he is.

Spiritual lows are horrible. I've never understood how Christians could turn against God. I've never understood how a person could desert their faith - now I do. Though I hate spiritual lows with a passion, I thank God for them. I thank God that I can look at faith and love and at Him from a different view. Viewing God from the same angle for an entire lifetime is an awful way to live a life. Or at least it is for me.  I thank God for the Intro to DMA class. I feel like without that class, I wouldn't think. I wouldn't ask God who he is. I wouldn't have the passion to know Him. I don't believe that I can make anything but trash without truly knowing God. The more films we watch in class the more I want to know God and the more questions I ask myself.

Fridge didn't bother me. I wasn't disturbed by the language. I remember Prof. Leeper asking if the language used in the film bothered anyone. He went on to say that is should bother us as Christians. Ever since that day I've been walking into trees.

With that being said, I really like our Intro to DMA class. It's been so hard for me to get back on the path, let alone find it. The films that we watch in class have helped bring me closer to God, in one way or another. I'm not exactly sure how it happens, but I do know that God works in amazing ways that I can't comprehend. I completely understand how the films shown in class can be offensive to people. Once upon a time it would've been uncomfortable for me to watch those films too. But today, I look at those films as beautiful blessings.